I sat here for 5 minutes trying to think of a title

I think maybe it’s the changing of the seasons that’s got me so emotional. Fall is my favorite time of year, but this year it seems that I am wanting more than ever to have someone to share the beauty of the season with, and not having that someone, I find myself feeling lonelier than normal lately.
And then there’s the approaching holidays. I’ve missed a Thanksgiving or two at home through the years, but this year I’m missing Thanksgiving and Christmas, as it’s not really possible for me to go home until early January. This is mostly due to the fact that I won’t have vacation time until the end of December, and even though I have PTO right now, it can’t be used as vacation, which means I can’t take more than one day of it at a time. So even though it works out better for multiple reasons for me to go home in early January, it makes me pretty darn sad to know that I won’t be with my family on either of my favorite holidays.
And on top of that, I’ve got some cases from work that are heavy on my mind, and some ridiculous crazy case workers who are making my job more difficult than it should be. I haven’t left work on time in two weeks, and I’ve taken only one real lunch break in that time. I feel like it’s been a full moon for a month. I enjoy my job a lot, but it is so hard to leave all of my patients problems at the door when I leave for the day. Impossible at times, really.

But on the brighter side, all of my belongings left Chattanooga today and will arrive in Portland next Thursday! I am super excited to know that in a little more than a week, I can finally unpack after 8 months of living here! Some of my stuff hasn’t been used in 3 years, since it was put away when I went to China, so it’s going to feel like all new stuff when I get to unpacking!

And David is coming in a few weeks!!! He gets here November 3rd and I get him for an entire week! There’s a chance I will hold him hostage here and not let him go.

Sometimes I feel like I end my posts rather abruptly. But sometimes I don't have a smooth ending. Thanks for letting me write out some of my emotions. It helps, you know.